Saturday, November 29, 2003
Damn ! Today's the last episode of Holland Village and i didnt even watch it. Well i didnt anyway for the past few days because i wasnt at home. Was really glad that Wanwan chose Yangxiong in the end but i heard that the ending was pretty stupid. In any case i'm gonna ask my friend to summarise the entire ending for me to hear.
Was at Clarke Quay just now and i got the shock of my life when the two retards i was with decided to ride The G-max ( a thrill ride sensation thats newly opened in Singapore. Bungy-style ) . I was kinda lookin forward to scarin myself silly on that thing actually but i wasn't mentally prepared for it and i was wobbling all the way until they told me they decided that they were cowards and they'll leave it to next time. LOL. Assholes. Walked down to BoatQuay after that and settled down at Boathouse as we were turned away by Hendrix. Dude ! I'll be back when i'm 18 ! Zz . What sucked most was that i had to adhere to my curfew set by my nonsensical dad and so i had to leave at 11 to be home by 12.
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Friday, November 28, 2003
woo. i am tired. Reached home at about 10 today and saw Eugene at the interchange again. He's always wearing this sly grin on his face but he looks so much better with brown hair than black. Anyway went for an interview with Yan today at Giordano and i'm keepin my fingers crossed that i'll land the job , or i'll be workin at that obscure Noda boutique starting from the fifth. And i'm praying that i'll be posted to that LevelOne@ Far east's branch !!!
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Thursday, November 27, 2003
Yes , i am up and running again. My zest for the outside world is back after a hiatus of 2 days !!!!!! Stumbled upon a document just now and it's an uncompleted piece of writing done by me i think a year ago. Well i thought that its pretty nice so i'm gonna post it up ya , though its uncompleted. It sounds like a rap but i'm really unsure of what the hell it really is . Oh and pardon the some parts which don't seem to be in sync with the rest. Its after all a raw and unedited piece of work:)
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The blade -
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The blade's dragged nice and slow
Leavin a trail of blood wherever it goes
Revellin in self-mutilation , she's so damn sure
That the end's so fuckin inevitable for her
Sanity's fallin apart as the seconds ticks by
Her counsellor's steppin in
And she's hollering out
Fuck off , its my life
Ain't want nobody in to be messin about
Her mom's screwin around
And her Dad's estranged
Lil bro's caught for shopliftin
Big bro's accused of rape
She's delusional , high on weed
She's hallucinating , she found herself in a familiar scene
She's contemplating suicide , she's lettin the Devil win
Her parents shouldn't have fucked in the first place
The condom must have been torn
Hell , a moment of pleasure and a lil whore's born
Such an angel she used to be
A picture of innocence and surreality
How the fuck she survived her tumultuous 18 years
Is still a big mystery to me
Strip her , and you will see
A human canvas of hatred
Depicting the pain and agony suffered
There's a long keloid scar running from neck to back
That's Dad in '87 with his Jim beam bottle when he was totally shagged
And then there's her spastic lil bro
Walkin around like he's got stunted growth
But hell no , walkin around bow-legged ain't his fault
Momma broke his infant legs when she flung him 'gainst the wall
When
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Haha..... what an anti climax ! I'll try to complete this when im free ...
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Yup its 1am and i've just reached home. i AM TIRED ! Update ya guys when i'm more conscious. So long , folks.
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Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Chihuahua
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Tuesday, November 25, 2003
By no means am i a slacker , but of late i found myself gettin lazier and i hafta really drag myself out of the house . I must get myself of this rut , man
"Selemat Hari Raya" to all muslims !
Yesterday night i had a fruitful conversation with a random chatter. He's 21 and serving his National service , and he's a self-proclaimed Casanova. Well , let's just say he isn't exactly conservative but no , he isn't one of those desperate and sex-deprieved males who greet you with "Hi honey. Wanna meet up for sex / Are you horny ?". Anyway he was one of those rare intelligent guys who could rival me in terms of debating .( yeah i enjoy a good argument ) . He was tellin me indirectly that he screwed around , and he thinks its no biggie cuz' he uses protection. I counter-attacked his dumb and overused "protection-used" excuse by tellin him that condoms aint fool-proof and that shit happens , and HIV viruses are tiny enough to pass thru' the minute holes in the rubber.
Obviously what he was doin is also morally wrong but i guess in today's liberated society it's kinda more tolerated now. Oh and he mentioned that he goes clubbin solely for the purpose of "accidental touching" , known as groping to the masses and outrage of modesty to the police. Girls , beware. I'm not goin to boycott clubbing as i do occasional club myself but i guess there's no harm in being wary , unless of course you're equally as horny as those guys out there and is out for one night stands.
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I'm still moaning the breakup of Savage Garden , a band i really loved. Their songs rock and their lyrics ain't cheesy ala typical pop gunk. And Darren Hayes isn't makin waves with his debut album either ( released quite some time ago ) , "Insatiable" sounded like fuck and in place of beautiful meaningful lyrics were stuff that sounded like it came out from a porn script. But kudos to him anyway for retaining his signature falsettos , yeah i love his voice so darn much , Richard Marx's and Rod Steward's too. And he IS sexy , that Darren hayes ,so i guess "Insatiable" does him pretty much justice.
I caught Limp Bizkit on MTV yesterday and i was kinda drooling over Fred Durst . He's not your typical pretty boy but somehow he seemed to exude sex appeal with that rough edge . Anyway after talkin so much bout it i decided to compile my own list of top ten sexiest guys and girls
Top 5 sexiest guys -
1- Johnny Depp !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2- Michael Rosenbaum ( "Lex Luther" from Smallville )
3- Fred Durst
4- Ashton Kutcher
5- Eric Roberts
Yah i know they all have "baddie" images but i have this thing for bad boys so...... :O
Top 5 hottest ladies
1- Angelina Jolie
2- Beyonce
3- Lucy Liu
4- Gwen Stefanie
5- Jennifer Love Hewitt
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Yes , Johnny Depp's incredibly hot with his chiselled and smouldering good looks and eyes that pierces you with that icy stare..
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Monday, November 24, 2003
I'm kinda goin bonkers. I was so bored that i actually went to count the lingerie i have in my closet. And the official count of bras currently stands at 18 , knickers 21 , thongs 6 and g-strings 11 . Call me a hoarder if u wish , but i just enjoy buyin 'em. Heard that second-hand undies are enjoying lucrative sales , but of course only those with a fetish for 'em buys 'em. OKay i'm off to my grandma's now , bye folks.
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It hurts when people stop appreciating you anymore. Just when you thought you're fulfilling your duties as a friend , shit happens and the next moment you find yourself on the ground ; trodden on and disregarded. I guess i've been not so nice as i would like to be recently , and I have a strong feeling about it , it feels like a case of bad karma comin' back towards me. Yeah , whether you like it or not , karma IS there. Its like a boomerang , travelling in a circle and gettin right back at ya. Do good , and be blessed. I really like the recent commercial by MTV thats about this cannon being shot from someplace in a tiny globe and the cannon travels around the world and back to destroy the place where it was fired. The commercial ends with the caption "Destruction comes back to you". Cool. Tell that to Osama , Bush and Saddam.
Went to a private art gallery with Terry at ClarkeQuay today. Not exactly an art gallery as most of the art pieces were lithographs of the original pieces but they were nevertheless beautiful. Oh did i mention Terry managed to sell his first piece of art today ? Though for a paltry $100 for his watercolour of the Marina waterfront , its at least something achieved. Btw it was bought by the owner of the art gallery we visited.. I'm so proud of him :O ..... Meet Terry , the struggling artist cum engineering student... Yeah... my best friend's the successor of Van gogh !!
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Starry starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
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This song , "Vincent" , inspired by the late Vincent van gogh , performed by some guy whose name i've forgotten.
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Sunday, November 23, 2003
Beauty and the Beast - Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson
Tale as old as time....
True as it can be..
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly.....
Just a little change...
Small to say the least...
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast ...
Ever just the same...
Ever a surprise ...
Ever as before
Ever just as sure...
As the sun will rise
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What a lovely song..
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I hate ulcers. Damn ! There's a huge one in my inner left cheek. And when i say huge , i mean HUGE. Its even affecting my sleeping position , thats how serious it is !!!
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Saturday, November 22, 2003
Hello folks . Yeah i know i haven't being updated tantalising stuff of late but rest assured i'll do so now~
Hmmmmm.... Since my exams are finally over its high time for me to take a breather which i did. Went for a job interview at Suntec city and i clinched the joB~! woo hoo ! However it starts only on the 5th and its like so damn long so meanwhile during the two weeks i'll be still searching for better job prospects since the contract will be signed on the day itself . The job is , by the way , the position of a full time sales assistant at a boutique at LevelOne. Not bad eh , considering i had beaten abt 15 ppl to it LOL . Guess lady luck's been trailing me !! But the sucky part is i have to stay on as a part time sales assis even after tertiary education starts in July. And its compulsory to wear lipstick !!!! Eeeewww... DOn't get me wrong , i do apply make-up and take pride in doin so , but wearing lipstick is another matter altogether. It feels so gross and i have a tendency to lick off the yucky goo ...
Hmmz anyway met up with Melvin , Huijie and Lexter @ orchard to watch The matrix Revolutions with them as Mel had free tix . Can tell that they loved the arcade kinda much but i would never dream of gettin a boyfriend who's obsessed with arcade or computer games like Counterstrike. I would feel like i'm playing second fiddle to their games ( and prolly true too ) . The show was hmmm , confusing , but still i enjoyed it. The visual assasault overwhelmed me and my mouth was gaped open throughout the whole movie. And did i mention we watched it on IMAX , the HuuuuuuuuuuGEEEEEEEEE cinema screen that's so blown out of proportion that's cool.
**Alert!!!!! Spoiler ahead so don't continue if u haven't and is planning to catch e movie** ( not recommended for non-matrix fans too )
As usual the movie continued to bewilder me as it did in the previous two installments and the Animatrix , and the mind boggling conversations are as paradoxical . And how mystifying are them conversations ? Let me quote a phrase from the Keymaker in Reloaded "I know because I must know. It's my purpose. It's the reason I'm here. Same reason we're all here" Its baffling isn't it ? Perhaps its time to get a new scriptwriter , Mr Wachowski(s).
Anyway Trinity died while navigating through the machine world and The Logos were taken down by the sentinels , and Trinity died cuz' apparently the sentinels stuck their snake-like paws into her body. Neo ( another paradox here. He's being described as "an anomaly of the matrix as a result of an equation tryin to balance itself" I hate maths but i know that while equations get solved there are always leftovers )got blinded and deprssed by Trin's death and he went to find the Source to make peace which they did and the main problem was the irksome Agent Smith whom i don't really find that sinister-looking to be playing the bad of the baddie but i love the way he grimaces. Well Neo and Smith gets locked in battle mode and the fight sequences were remarkable but in the end , as always , good always triumphs over evil. So smith gets destroyed when he thought that he had won Neo and tried to host Neo's body but that actually connects him to the source where he gets promptly deleted.
Oh i'm still tryin to come up with a conjecture for the role of the "cookies are to be made with love" oracle. What is she , man ? People's always consulting her but she's always giving nonsensical and answerless answers. She's also an anomaly of the matrix but no1 knows if she's benign or evil.
Ok enough of the Matrix already. Went to meet up with Ju , HH , Ben and a few others who were already at Fisherman's village chilling out. Beach haven's a really nice place , remember being there once with my classmates . So they had a motive for asking me out. Terry appeared out of nowhere and the moment i saw him i wanted to slit Ju's neck. The audacity of that girl ! Okay so i was lookin forward to ending the war so and some heart-to-heart talk later we made up and we're good friends once again ! :) . However the heavens above didnt agree and the skies threatened to open up so we zipped to Danny's house where we watched "the texas chainsaw massacre" pirated VCD on his home-theatre system and i got really freaked out by the super gory scenes so after half hr i decided i was tired and i crept into the huge plush sofa in Danny's room where Ju was sleepin already and slept till morning ...
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Friday, November 21, 2003
MY ExAMS ARE OVER AT LONG LAST ! AFTER 5 YEARS OF EDUCATION thAT WENT TOWARDS THE PREPARATION FOR THIS DAMNED EXAM ITS OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IMMA GOIN OUT NOW ! TAkE CARE FOLKS!
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Thursday, November 20, 2003
I was watching Animal Planet just now and they were showin a documentary about animal sacrifices , and there's this african tribe whose tradition is to sacrifice their pet dog once its of a certain age. I was appalled when they held a scrawny chicken by its neck and the narrator went "Before the sacrifice of the dog , a chicken has to go first...." Soon after that a blade was held to its neck and they slitted it . Well i missed that part cuz' i squeezed my eyes shut. Worse to come , the chicken was still alive and i could see it wheezing ( i think ) and its a really sorry sight , to see a white chicken stained red with its blood and the throat slit so widely that you could see sinewy bits of the slain throat in clear view.
And now comes the really horrific yet poigant part. You see , the tribe members wished wholeheartedly that they don't hafta kill their precious lil' doggy cum best friend , but because its a tradition that has been passed down for a few centuries they cant defy it.As as the dog was being led to the sacrificial site you could see that he was really subdued , and in his eyes were the most heartrending gaze ; it was as if he knew that his time was up. I was truly perturbed when this guy seized a club from somewhere and aghast when i realised that that club was to be the precise cause of death for the poor dog. I wasn't prepared when that club-wielding guy dealt it a blow , and another , and another . They didn't show the exact scene of the beating so i'm thankful for that but his pain-filled yelps says it all. The thing i knew , the lifeless body of a faithful servant and a friend was lying there.
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Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Hmmz i remember having ALOT to write but somehow it escaped thru' the pores on my skin ... thru' my ears... thru every darn hole ... LOL~ Till i get my inspiration , see ya around folks
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Monday, November 17, 2003
This is really cool. I had one of the most restless sleep yesterday night , owing to the fact that i dreamt three "mini-nightmares" consecutively. Well it wasnt like those kinda dreams u have when you're totally unconscious and deep in slumber but i was still pretty much awake when i thought of it. ANyway not gonna dwell too much into this .
Firstly , ok so this one's really weird. I actually thought about getting my finger pulverised in a blender !!! It doesn't come so much as a surprise to me that i had dreamt of it because i've quite a small phobia of blenders ,no thanks to the recent art exhibit about this goldfish in a blender where the viewer decides on the fate of the poor little fish. I guess that after dreaming about ME getting the blender treatment my phobia would get intensified , and yeah when i walked into the kitchen and spied the blender on da table i actually shuddered quite a bit ( or maybe it's just a figment of my active imagination )
Secondly ( this is just as weird ) , i saw myself being isolated in a padded cell the area of a small box with enough room for me to be sitting cross-legged. Now , this might seem mudane but before u shake it off , take a load of this : I'm being kept alive and forced to spent ETERNITY isolated in this bare cell !!! I imagine this to be like a punishment from God for the sins i've done and come to think of it i would prolly choose suffering in eternal damnation over being isolated ceaselessly. And you can't even commit suicide in there cuz' its God who's punishing ya so you're being kept alive against your wishes. OMG can you envision this .... You're blank-minded day in day out , with nothing to do , with just sleeping being the only escape from your boredom...
Lastly.... Oh.... I think i'll update this later when night falls cuz i gotta go do some last min revision for my exam later at 2pm. see ya around folks
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Sunday, November 16, 2003
Hohoho
Had the "time of my life" yesterday when i was taken for a ride by Nic and OY , travelling all the way from tampines to sengkang in my oldest flash imp tee , an obscenely short pair of surf shorts and ancient trail slippers. I must have looked a sight !!! Anyway we went there to collect Geography notes from Xin and basically the whole day was spent revolving around Geography as the exam's on Mon. Today's no different , gotta camp at home to mug for Geog again .... Kinda boring weekend but i'll survive !!! 5 more days towards freedom !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, November 15, 2003
Weeee~
Got dragged to attend cell group by Yan in the afternoon and boy do i regret it. Cell group was held in somebody's place in AMK and it was totally different from what i expected cuz' i attended cell group once before when i was still with Derek and the meeting was a pretty spiritual one with alot of interaction. Today's cell group meeting however was although an interactive one , i got really bored out by the games they were playing , sorta like icebreaker games. And as there were too many of us stuffed into his living room i was almost dying of inhaling too much carbon dioxide and stuffiness. Oh the warmth !
Went to Yan's place after that to photocopy Geography notes and she cooked this brand of korean instant noodles ( hot mushroom flavour ) thats well-loved by the both of us though every mouthful i took seemed to sear my lips and not long after i begin to feel my lips swelling up and yeah it does resemble a sausage after a while but what the hell at least they look more kissable than my normal lips so i guess its not so bad after all. Any takers ?
stayed there till 8+ before makin my way to Ju's chalet. Since i couldnt stay for long i decided to make much of it as i can and i ate alot there , boy were the stringrays marinated by HH delicious.. absolutely lip-smacking !! And of course liquour was on the menu but i abstained from it as i had to go home early but i couldnt resist a little vodka ( Absolut Vodka too !! ) and the usual silly group games like "One froggy jumped into the pond " and "secret number" that had everyone in fits especially when Ben had to do the forfeit of sneaking into the next chalet to strike a macho pose in front of strangers.
Loved the elated look on Ju's face when i gave her the present bought by me and 3 other ppl. It was a burberry scarf/shawl that costs a whopping $130+ !! Terry was there too but i barely even glanced at him ... he didnt bothered to speak to me anyway so why should i ? Of couse i wouldnt let a small setback spoil my mood and the next 2 hours were spent laughing and eating... was damn damn reluctant to leave but i had to as my dad refused to let me stay out late durin the examinations period so David offered to send me back , to which i politely declined but he insisted so ... here i am safely back home..
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Obstination
When will we learn to give in
And quit being so stubborn ?
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Friday, November 14, 2003
Is it just me , or do i really feel "high" whenever i get infected by a bout of flu ( those kinds that comes with non stop sneezing ) , not unlike the floaty feeling you get when you've had a few shots of vodka... that buzz in your head...
Maybe its the flu medication i've taken but since it doesnt come with the warning "may cause drowsiness" i'll take it as i get "high" when i'm down with flu. And this isn't the first time ! Meanwhile i'll sit back and let the flu take me higher....
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Thursday, November 13, 2003
Its only 11 but i'm yawning away already !
Went to watch hidden track with classmates Pei , Ben , Nicholas , Kenneth and Oiyen !! Was full of anticipation but barely halfway through the movie i thought the entire show was a big mistake. The plot is there and its pretty good but somehow the director managed to make it lame and the main actress , named PuPu , did not appeal to me as her character was irritating anyway in short the movie really sucked except for the bit scene when Jay appeared of course. And he's totally droolsome !! I'm just glad that Jay isn't that main actor for this movie , or it'll be so damn embarrasing for him to star in such a movie, even though the actors in the movie are big-names in the HK movie industry. Obviously that movie company's just riding on Jay's fame to earn some quick buck. Fook off !
Went to the Bowling alley with them after that and watched them play but ended up squashing my pinkie between two bowling balls and got my poor little finger swollen. Say hello to Miss careless !
Had to cancel my appointment with Ju that was supposed to take place in the evening as i did not want to miss tonight's episode of "Holland Village" . Anyway Julynn didnt mind anyway , that slacker's only too happy to stay at home though she grumbled a bit .
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The soul onto itself
Is an imperial friend
Or the most agonising spy
An enemy could send
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003
hmm.... Met up with Auntie BaoYing ( tampines area group leader ) for some briefing before we went seperate ways and today i had 10 elderly persons' homes to visit... Sadly as i chose the wrong timing ( lunch time ) many were not at home ... anyway as usual Mr wong invited me in and we chatted for quite some time. The usual complains about his cramped knee but other than that he was telling me about his adventures when he was with the British police force as a Fingerprint expert ( Woah ! ) .... And yeah he speaks really fluent english with no signs of singlish , not surprising since he studied in scotland when he was young. And he's really cool too ! His hair is totally white but yet he still styles it with wax so that it rests neatly on his head.. and... he has a pierced earlobe !!!!! And u can tell he used to be really fit cuz compared to the other elderly men he doesnt have a paunchy tummy....
And after that went to grandma's house again and back home....
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Even in the twilight years
Embrace life , they should
And of death one musn't fear
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Q : Why does buttered toast always fall on its buttered side ?
A : Because its like that
Q : WHy does the phone never ring when you're free but ring incessantly when you're sitting on the toilet bowl or bathing ?
A : Because i have morons with bad timings for friends
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ZzzzzZzzzzz
I'm tired !!!So imma make post short and sweet... summarising very briefly.....
Went to Ju's place for a while in the noon and was supposed to study but ended up laughing non stop and rummaged about her brother's closet , unravaling some dark secrets about her brother like a box of Durex condoms in his drawers and *gasp* ! there were supposed be like 3 but there were only 2 in it. WHich means.... Hehehhe.... Went to grandma's place after that and tried some basketball freestyle moves taught by my cousin but failed terribly.
And oh ! I've juz bought Jay's EP + VCD !!!!! Woot !
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN~!!!!!! LOl ! Yeah its a last min post but hey at least i honoured you on my blog~! Old man 23 liao ... lol..
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Today seems kinda bleak . I slept for more than i should , and it didnt help that the refrains of the song "Orbit" ( or Gui Ji in chinese ) by Jay kept replaying in my head even while i was asleep , and trust me that song is those kinda songs ya wouldnt wanna listen to when you're down . ( No i'm not down , just pissed )
Got two guys mad at me yesterday , Aaron for one , made me pissed when he suddenly mentioned Qiangmin ( a guy i used to have a crush on ) out of the blue and much out of spite , and without thinking i scolded him and yeah i'm wrong in the sense but he shouldnt even have mentioned him in the first place and its like so damn irrelevent. Anyway i said sorry even though both of us were equally wrong , and he apologised after me but the world is a fucked up place without much reason so , whatever.
And then there's Terry. Two days passed without so much of an SMS from him and that made me missed him kinda much , but i was reluctant to call him first cuz it isnt my style and i knew he was angry for some reason but since he was apprehensive about telling so i didnt bother. Well he called me unexpectedly yesterday and the root of the misunderstanding was because of a stupid profile on my handphone with the initials "bclg" and he thought that that was the initials of the guy i like which is so damned stupid cuz thats actually the initials of my grandparents' name.
Anyway he shouldnt have touched my phone in da very first place cuz its like invading my privacy but yet he wasnt in the least apologetic about it and it was like he had the damned right to do. Of course i claimed my innocence but he wouldnt listen and kept insisting that it was my fault for keeping stuff from him and he even dug the skeletons from the closet , bringing up old stuff that happened between us and that got me really fuming so we really quarrelled and he hung up the phone on me. I can't believe it . And i thought we had a stable friendship goin on. The way he's acting , its like a jealous boyfriend accusing his indignant girlfriend. No wonder the hair on my head has been getting scarce of late , thanks to pulling at my hair in frustration all too often.
You guys might be thinking , in the end its always the guys who end up giving in , and sadly its true. Women are pampered in that sense , but after putting with so much nonsense from guys i guess thats quite tolerable . Anyway studies have shown ( my own studies ) that its always the guy who start the ball rolling in an arguement with dumb statements like "where have you been all night ? Flirting other guys i suppose?" Boyfriends out there , don't deny this.
"If men are from mars,women are from venus" I second that , though men are more likely to have originated from the local asylum . This post concludes that women are not the only creatures with hard-to-understand mood swings , and that men are equally unreasonable.
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If we're the indomitable duo that we've always claimed to be
Then why do hairline cracks open into abysses so deep ?
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You say all these feelings are soo new,
It's not just you, I feel them too...
When we first met, a second glance you did not get,
yet now ,here we are and I can't help but stare...
And in return, you stared deep into my eyes,
Caressing my heart and sending me into bliss...
I've tried to resist, I've tried to fight,
But in the end, I can't help but let you win...
Everything seems like bad timing for you and I,
But in the end it always feels more than right...
Yes, I know I'm a handful, but you seem to handle me so well,
You give me not too little, not too much, always just right...
With you there is never a silent moment,
Your heartbeats say more than words...
And in your arms it feels soo right,
I don't even bother trying to fight...
Fighting these feelings that I've felt deep inside,
The ones that I was soo afraid of, I had to hide...
You make me laugh with your cheesy lines,
But that's what made me realize you're one of a kind...
You always say, "It always gets better and better"
Better than this? It’s hard to believe...
Yes, this is something special, something real,
Something that I thought I would never feel...
It has never felt more comfortable, never felt more right,
I wish I could be with you every day and every night...
You are now a part of my life. a new chapter. a new beginning,
That I can’t wait to see what it has in store for us...
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woo. i AM so tired ! My eyelids are gettin heavier by the minute... spent half the day in town shopping with Shihan , and both of us went weak-kneed over this Pierre Cardin undies set with this really sweet pink bra with a little flower motive at the side , and knickers equally as delightful with its flowery edge. Bought a few tops as well , but spent quite alot on eating alone , and we prowled town searching for a suitable prom attire for Shihan , and in the end she settled for a casual yet smart combi of jeans and a pink top with aladdins or heels, though she's still caught between that combi and a really nice dress from POA , and btw POA is the shop i love most. Period.
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Monday, November 10, 2003
i feel so blessed~! Seems that so far i'm havin it good , though i wished i could say the same for my studies , which isnt exactly sterling but i guess given my capacity my zest for studying is quite commendable. 11 more days towards my last paper !!!!!!!!
Love life ? Singlehood may not be the option preferred by most but it gives me the freedom to go out with whoever i want to , until the time finally comes for me settle down.
Family-wise , it couldnt get any better. I love my grandparents dearly and they rock ! Of course it would have been better if they had better health but lets not ask for too much ya ?
I'm going out to do abit of shoppin now !! Anticipation !!
posted @ 1:34 PM
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I don't know how to describe my take on the behaviour between two people from the different sex. Firstly , like i've always claimed myself to be , i'm liberal. I am a liberated girl ! Liberated as in , i am opposed to being conservative and i have modern views. Like , as early as 10 years ago , it was still appropiate for a male to pay for each and every expenses incurred during a date with a lady. Well it is not so now , for although there are still many ladies who enjoy having their expenses paid for by their partner ( only two reasons for this phenomenon. One , the girl is stingy and wants to take advantage and this is usually the case , and second , this girl is extremely backward in her thinking ). I really don't understand it. I really dislike guys paying for me on dates ( i make an exception for special occasions and first dates ) , and i believe in going dutch ( though i draw the line at paying for guys. This is utterly unacceptable ! I find guys who let girls pay for them disgusting , and even a mere hint by the guy for the girl to pay for him intolerable ) . WHy is this so ? Well for the simple reason of letting my date know that i am going out with him not because i want to sponge on him , but just because i want to go out with him . But the liberation kinda stops here , as you will read later on. I don't make the first moves as liberated women do !! Though i hope i have the courage to do so .
And there's the contradiction. I am old fashioned too ! Thus i am not completely liberated.I believe doors should be opened and held for the lady , that chairs should be pulled out for her , and the works. Its a form of respect for the fairer sex , and it gives the lady dignity. Anyway its basic etiquette and i feel that guys without the proper manners should be just dumped aside. If in public he doesn't even bother , then imagine what he'll do in the privacy of home. Hell , he'll prolly scald his wife with boiling water and disfigure her with acid for refusing to have sex with him. I'm exaggeratin of course , but bear in mind that it happens. And it has happened.
posted @ 12:51 AM
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WHat a boring sunday !! Day was spent mostly on the computer doing some jay-related stuff and went out for a short while for dinner with terry at east point at Burger King ... was getting stomach cramps induced by laughing too much as a result of his lameness.... just how lame can a person get ?? Well. There was one time where his phone started ringing and that lame dude actually took off his shoe and held it to his ear. It may not be very funny to you , but to see such an extreme act of lameness in action tickled my funny bone and got me hysterical. Thats Terry for you.
Was back home to catch "Singapore's brainiest teacher" and then the showdown between Man Utd and Liverpool.... got off to a slow start which ended in 0-0 for the first half which by then had got me yawning pretty much due to the slow pace... watched "Deuce Bigalow , Male Gigolo" on Channel 5 which had me in fits of laughter because of its lameness ( woah realised i have used the word "lame" quite liberally in this post )....Got a shock when i switched back to ESPN and saw the score was 2-1 , Giggs scoring twice for man u . Damned.
Boy oh boy am i looking forward to watching :
1 - Hidden track
2- Matrix revolutions ( i have watched every installment ! Including the Animatrix which blew my mind with its dazzling effects )
3- Brother bear !
posted @ 12:21 AM
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Sunday, November 09, 2003
hiya i'm e author of www.hazardous-material.blogspot.com but as a result of my failing memory i have forgotten my username for that blog thus resulting in me not being able to update it anymore.
posted @ 4:43 PM
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